Hey watz up?...damn i havent written in here in soooo long lol....buh n e wayz well life haz been goin pretty well...theres nothing i have 2 complain about....i mean there haznt been n e rcent DRAMA or n e thing like dat....i guess dats b cuz were all older now n were all growing apart....buh its 4 da best..i think? lol......well i dont have much 2 say so diz iz gonna b short....ill write bac soon..

*Mahal Kita*

Currently Listening Suit By Nelly My Place.. see related

OMG!.....I MISS HIM LIKE CRAZY!!...N HE HAZ NO IDEA...I TALK 2 HIM ALMOST EVERY DAY...N EVERY TIME I TALK 2 HIM I SWEAR MY HEART SKIPZ A BEAT...I GET BUTTERFLYS WHEN I THINK ABOUT HIM....BUH WAT SUCKZ DA MOST IZ HE HAZ NO IDEA....HE PROLLY DOESNT CARE....BUH I DO...I FEEL SO BAD 4 LETTING HIM GO...BUH I HAD NO CHOICE....I DID IT 4 DA BEST I GUESS....I HOPE HEZ HAPPY NOW....IDK WAT 2 DO N E MORE...IM GOING CRAZY! HEZ ALL I THINK ABOUT NIGHT N DAY!....I WOULD TELL HIM HOW I FEEL...BUH I DONT WANT 2 MESS UP R FRIENDSHIP N E MORE DEN IT ALLREADY IZ....MY MIND IZ TELLIN ME 2 JUZ LET HIM GO...BUH MY HEART CANT SEEM 2....FUCK!....I HATE THIS SOOO MUCH...N IT ALWAYZ HAPPENS!.....IDK WAT 2 DO....I WISH I COULD JUZ STOP DOIN DIZ 2 MYSELF...BUH I CANT SEEM 2....MY FRIEND TOLD ME 2 JUZ MOVE ON N GET UP...N IVE TRYED....REALLY I HAVE BUH EVERY TIME I TALK 2 HIM I CANT HELP BUH GO BAC 2 HIM N FALL BAC DOWN AGAIN....CAN SUM 1 PLZ HELP ME....N E 1 IDC...I JUZ WANNA GET OVER HIM! I WANT 2 GET HIM OUT OF MY THOUGHTZ!.....BUH THERE IZ JUZ 1 THING DAT I NEVER WANT 2 DO...N DATZ GETTING HIM OUT OF MY HEART....THERE IZ A PLACE 4 HIM ALWAYZ N I NEVER WANT IT 2 GO AWAY....LOL I NO DAT SOUNDS STUPID BUH DATZ HOW I FEEL....WELL IM KINDA TIRED....SO ILL WRITE BAC ANOTHER DAY...

*Mahal Kita*

"3 Little Words"

One look in your eyes
I knew we two would always be together
And there are, 3 little words that say it all
I love you

Never believed in love at first sight
But I believe what I'm feeling tonight
'Cause when I saw you across the room
I felt my heart going boom, boom, boom

I looked, I fell so hard
Girl I know you can tell that
I'm hooked, oh you, oh girl
You know I'm falling for you because

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One look in your eyes
I knew we two would alwayz be together
And there are, 3 little words that say it all
I love you
Girl I realize
That I wanna be with you forever
So say those 3 little words I wanna hear
I love you

I was waitin' for a sign from you
Hoping you'd feel the same way, too
When you looked at me and smiled
My heart was goin' a thousand miles

I stopped, turned around, I tried
To keep my feet on the ground
As I stepped to you, we touched
I knew you were feelin' it too because

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I know it's written all over my face
And girl you can believe it's true
'Cause time could never erase
These feelings I have for you

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FUCK DAT SHYT!! man idk wtf i waz thinking diz time?!? i swear....i must have been smokin crack or sumtin!! shyt!! lol buh n e wayz if u dont get get dont worry bout it....n e wayz my hair iz BLOND!!! haha yes i no crazy idea!! buh itz not dat bad lol i actually make sence now!! lol buh n e wayz....well da past week haz been pretty cool....i MARRIED now!! lol yes yes 2 my luffer! lol...buh n e wayz ok....diz iz wat happened....4 da last few weekz ive been "seeing" lol diz guy ROY....like all last week lol n well....im really starting 2 like him like him lol i mean b 4 i liked hiz az a friend buh da more we hang out da more i like him .....oh n if ur wondering i FINALLY told ROBERTO dat i DIDNT love him n e more....yeah itz over 4 EVER.....like idk? in a way i will ALWAYZ love him.....buh i think dat itz best dat i move on...i mean he moved on while we were still talking...so yeah....another thing i really really hate iz dat he lied 2 da gurl he likes about wat we did.....i mean i no itz none of her bizzness dat we well...u get wat im trying 2 say lol....buh idk i feel like he waz ashamed of it....well w/e datz over now...were over now...n there iz no going bac...i mean y go bac 2 sumtin dat waznt there in da first place rite?.....buh n e wayz im moving on gradually n pretty soon i wont remember hiz name or who he iz lol....buh seriously i wont....n e wayz umm wat else? oh yeah 4th of july iz cumming up!! yay!!! lol ummm idk wat im gonna do diz 4th of july buh w/e i do it will b fun! lol well im tired so ill wirte bac another time...

*Mahal Kita*

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mood:

Why do I love you?...Why do i stay up all night crying and wishing that you would love me like i love you?...Why do i care sooo much for you and yet u could care less for me?..Why do i pray to God every night for you to realize how much i love you?...I dont understand what i do to make you leave me...i mean i never cheated....i never left you for someone else...so what did i do wrong? i mean i never told you i didnt love you...if anything i told you i love you too much...is that why u left? is that why you just dont care any more?....i guess so because no matter what i tell you, no matter how much i try to convince you that i still love you.....you still dont care....i alwayz wonder why i let you get away so many times...but what i should be wondering is why you let me go so many times?...i mean you leave and then you come back to me and tell me you love me right after you just finish saying that you dont love me...i dont understand why it is so hard for you to make up your mind?...is it me that you cant make up your mind about?...i wish i knew...I always ask myself why i put myself through so much...even though i know that you will hurt me even though you say it will never happen again i still wllingly go back to you every time you say those 4 little words...."i still love you"....how can those 4 little words mean so much to me?....maybe its because everytime i hear you tell me that you love me i think that you actually mean it....i often wonder why i tell you to do things that i know will hurt me....like i tell you that you can date other people...or that you can get back with your ex if you wanted to...i guess i tell you that because i dont want you to know that i still care...i dont want you to know that i still love you.....i realize now that i push my feelings for you away because i dont want to ruin our friendship....i mean our friendship means more to me then any thing in the entire world....you mean more to me then any thing in the entire world.....you just dont know that....okay i can understand that you love me and that you always will because we have something that know one can ever take away....but right now i feel as though im in your way of what you heart wants....and the only way i know how to get out of your way is by letting you go....i hate to let you go because i love you soooo much and it kills me to think that your arms are gonna be around someone else...just the thought that you lips will be pressed up against someone elses hurts me more then any thing....but i dont want to be the reason for your unhappyness....you said that you dont want to worry about anything this summer...and you said that you just wanted to relax, and i can understand that....so thats what im gonna do....im gonna let you be and let you do your own thing....you said that i can date other people if i wanted...but honestly i dont want to date any one else...because the only person i want to be with is you....

ok i think i wrote enough for this blog....ill write somem more tomorrow good night....

-To Be Continued